I’ve always been an introvert. I’ve never been a “people-person”. Throughout school, from elementary through college, this was incessantly obvious. I wasn’t outgoing, even while playing in a band for years and years and YEARS. You’d think I’d have learned to be, with constant interaction with so many people. Still, it just never happened.
It’s only gotten more defined as I’ve gotten older. Now, with absolutely no room for drama and crazy squabbles in my life, I have managed to separate myself into a whole new category.
I’m not sure what that is… but still…
There is one thing, though, that can quickly bring me out of my shell. One thing pulls me out, every single time, without fail. The one thing I could talk about, sing about and tell about, as long as anyone would listen.
That’s my Jesus!
He’s My Reason for Everything
I never knew how much He could change my life. I never knew that real “peace that passes all understanding” until I truly gave myself over to Him. The Bible says that the god of this world blinds the eyes of an unbeliever, so it’s no surprise when people think me strange.
But if our gospel be hid, it is hid to them that are lost: In whom the god of this world hath blinded the minds of them which believe not, lest the light of the glorious gospel of Christ, who is the image of God, should shine unto them.2 Corinthians 4:3-4
In fact, we are called to be “peculiar people”. I’m sure I carried that title for a long time anyway, but this is much better.
For thou art an holy people unto the LORD thy God, and the LORD hath chosen thee to be a peculiar people unto himself, above all the nations that are upon the earth.Deuteronomy 14:2
And the LORD hath avouched thee this day to be his peculiar people, as he hath promised thee, and that thou shouldest keep all his commandments.Deuteronomy 26:18
But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvellous light;1 Peter 2:9
Boldness That Only He Can Give
I have to say, I’m not normally bold in speech. I don’t strike up conversations, usually. If the Holy Ghost moves on me though, I can’t really hold it back.
It’s surprising, really, because I never saw myself this way. Witnessing to others, before I really came to know and experience the Truth, was something I didn’t think I could do.
Now, I find myself in the middle of a grocery store or department store, or even a parking lot, and it could hit me. It could be something as small as a smile on purpose. On the other hand, I have just outright asked complete strangers if I might be able to pray with them.
That’s not “me” folks! We have boldness to come before the throne of grace in times of need (Hebrews 4:16). But there’s another kind of boldness that comes when we make ourselves available to God.
Ignorant But Bold
Now when they saw the boldness of Peter and John, and perceived that they were unlearned and ignorant men, they marvelled; and they took knowledge of them, that they had been with Jesus.Acts 4:13
There’s just something about spending time with the Lord. Not only does it bring a calm and a peace to our own souls, but it changes us in the eyes of other people too! When you speak in HIS boldness, it’s Him that shines through, and not us. And that’s exactly how it should be!
It might be so out of character for you, in fact, that other people think it beyond your “ignorance” to speak the way you do. Now, that’s not to say you are ignorant as in “stupid” or “dumb”. Being ignorant about something is simply another way of saying you don’t know everything about whatever it is.
The good news is, Jesus can give us revelation knowledge and teach us more in a moment than we could learn in the flesh in years. It can even turn an introvert in a people person!
Speaking With Boldness
And now, Lord, behold their threatenings: and grant unto thy servants, that with all boldness they may spake thy word,….
And when they had prayed, the place was shaken where they were assembled together; and they were all filled with the Holy Ghost, and they spake the word of God with boldness.Acts 4:29, 31
Getting alone with God, in prayer and solitude and sometimes, even fasting, is one of the best ways to become bold for Him. You’ll better know who you are in Him. You will have a more intimate knowledge of what He wants you to do and say. Having confidence in ourselves, in the flesh, isn’t too good. But having confidence IN HIM, well, now that’s a different story!
That kind of confidence doesn’t just change our lives, it has the potential to change the lives of those around us as well.
I’m Still An Introvert Though
I won’t say my transformation hasn’t been without my own feet dragging. In fact, one of the biggest blessings I ever got, came from stepping out of my comfort zone. I had argued with God that I didn’t want to do what He was telling me to do. I even told my husband, in hopes that he would tell me not to do it too.
But he didn’t tell me that.
In fact, he told me to go on and do what God was telling me to do! Side note: it is SO awesome to have a Godly husband who doesn’t mind giving me that extra shove when I need it!
My prayer is that you will let God turn you into whatever He wants you to be. Even if it wasn’t exactly what you planned. Even if it’s not what you think it ought to be.
His ways are not our ways. And His plans for our lives may not be the same ones we had for ourselves.
They’re so much better.