But what think ye? A certain man had two sons; and he came to the first, and said, Son, Go work to day in my vineyard. He answered and said, I will not: but afterward he repented, and went. And he came to the second, and said likewise. And he answered and said, I go, sir: and went not. Whether of them twain did the will of his father? They say unto him, The first. Jesus saith unto them, Verily, I say unto you, The the publicans and the harlots go into the kingdom of God before you.Matthew 21:28-31
Have you ever felt prompted to do something that you feel God is leading you to do? And have you always done it?
I have… and I haven’t.
I have felt prompted to do things that I felt like God was calling me to do.
But I haven’t always done them!
I guess it all boils down to my wondering whether or not it’s “Him” or “me”. I always wonder, “God, was that really you? Or is it me, just making things up in my head?”
Was That You, God?
I’m still not always sure I can tell the difference. Honestly, I’m way overzealous to serve Him! I love to encourage people in the Word and pray for or with people. It breaks my heart to see anyone forsaking God and living below their means.
But, on the other hand, there have been plenty of times I’ve cemented my feet to the floor, knowing I was supposed to be moving instead. Not out of a desire to say no to Jesus! But rather, that I always, always have that thing gnawing at the back of my mind… That’s not Jesus, that’s you. If you move now, and nothing happens or comes of it, they’ll think Jesus is a fraud and you will be damned for stepping outside the scope of faith. And about half a million other thoughts I won’t even share. All to the tune of you’re not good enough.
But reading this tonight… I don’t know. It scares me a little bit. Okay, a lot! I WANT to do the will of my Father! I want to please Him in all things! And there is SO MUCH Kingdom work to be done right now!
Going forward, my prayer is that I will be able to crucify this flesh to carry out what Jesus is prompting me to do. Of course, I’ve said that a million times. Promised to say what He would have me to say, go where He would want me to go, and do what He would have me to do.
And somehow I just keep falling short.
Y’all pray for me, okay?