Tell the Truth

I thought for a long time how to explain the funk I’ve been in over the past … ??? I know it’s been a while since I blogged and I have missed it so much! But I just haven’t had the energy. Not mentally, nor physically. Especially now that garden season is here. Plus, I have another website I’m trying to launch, as well as a YouTube channel and possibly a new book.

As much as I love to write, I have trashed draft after draft, so instead, I’m going to share a poem I wrote about two weeks ago. It pretty much says everything, I just don’t have to use as many words to get there.

I don’t claim to be a poet, lol. So if the syntax stinks, my apologies!

Tell the Truth…

I know the Truth, that He paid a debt for me
So when am I actually supposed to free?
From the chains that are still holding me fast and tight
But no one knows, I keep it hid in the night

I love and I love and I live but I'm cold
The grief that I buried in a grave, never told
I lie to myself, though it feels like the truth
But I'm with me all day and that's all the proof

Where is the joy? Where is the benefit?
Where is it hiding? Why don't I get it yet?
How can I light the way, when I can't see mine?
Heart clinched and breath pinched, but hey, man, I'm fine

Excuses cross my mind and my heart opposes
I know that they're lies but this is poison in small doses
Sheltered in many, I see chances, they're loathesome
But I'm held to my fears, even though no one knows 'em

Cause I know the Truth, I need no one to tell me
I argue solo daily, and still I can't sell me
On stuff that I know and I knew, feels like quicksand
I know I'm unworthy and I know that I can't stand

In front of the King who laid down His life for me
I stand, bold, in weak flesh, like He doesn't know me
I know what Paul meant when he said I don't want to
But this stuff I don't want to, it's the same stuff I still do

Try as I might, I can't see nothin' brighter
And this load that I'm carrying, it ain't gettin' no lighter
Maybe if I said something, then someone would answer
I gotta claw my way up form this cold demon slander

It's the same rhyme and reason satan's used since the garden
To bend and to twist, causing hearts to get hardened
You know what they say, man, to me, that won't happen
But the devil's a pro at catchin' weak warriors nappin'

#AlwaysKeepFighting

#ArmorUP

6 Comments

  1. Praying for you, friend! Seasons of attack can be so difficult. There are more for you than against you! The battle is the Lord’s and he has already won. Stand firm. I’m standing with you!

    1. Author

      Thank you, dear sister! I was telling someone not long ago the same thing… that it’s so hard to fight from WITHIN the fire, but so worth it once it’s done! Thank you for standing with me! God bless you and yours! <3

  2. Pretty deep. Thoughts in prayer the past week keep repeating: “Where in the book Jesus does it say this walk is shallow & cheap?” It’s just not in there.

    Earth’s most precious stones (diamonds, ruby’s, sapphire’s, etc.) & most powerful elements (Uranium, plutonium, etc) are buried deep. It takes much effort, energy and expense to mine and refine them to the sate of purity where their TRUE essence and potential is attained (think nuclear scientists spinning centrifuges deep in the mountains of Iran?).

    Why would we think the things of God, the weighty things of the Spirit, eternal things, will come easy, cheap and without a high price?

    Life is the ultimate love test. We will all stand before God and prove by the life we lived what we truly loved.

    It’s evidenced by what you are saying here that you are still “in the race” Sister. The enemy is not bothered by those who do not challenge him.

    Keep fighting. It will be worth it all! Peace in Jesus’ Name!

    1. Author

      Wow! Thank you so much for these encouraging words! You are so right that the enemy is not bothered by those of us who don’t challenge him… what a sobering thought! I will definitely keep fighting, and praising God for the encouragement and strength He brings through people like you! Blessings to you!

  3. This was so powerful! Who said you were not a poet?! I think you are a poet and didn’t know it! 🙌🏼 Keep fighting! Jesus will give the victory!💃🏼🙏🏼🙌🏼👏🏼

    1. Author

      Thank you, Sis <3 <3 <3 Every once in a while, I jot down ideas, and this one just kinda "fell out of my head" lol. I appreciate you so much!

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