Does that sound weird? Cause it definitely feels weird!
See, I live for opportunities to get in the Word. And oftentimes I’ll put it off until I have plenty of time because I’m one of those that has to have my Bible, and my highlighter, and my notebook, and my Strong’s concordance, and… well, you get the picture.
I have to dissect everything and follow all the footnotes. I always go back and forth, from the Old Testament to the New Testament (even though some people think the Old Testament is useless these days). And don’t even get me started about checking Strong’s and then finding a million other verses to go to that have the same word, though it’s translated as something different. It’s so intriguing to me! I have to find out more!
Those closest to me know that I LOVE LOVE LOVE to talk about Jesus, and the Bible, and prayer. And I know that once I get started, I can head down rabbit holes that seem waaaaaaay over my head. I talk too fast, get too excited, and might mention things that I think the other person should already know about and understand, even if they don’t.
Many times, when I have the most to say, I wind up not saying anything. I worry that I come off too strong or too vehement. I worry that I might not make myself clear, and the LAST THING I wanna do is misrepresent my Jesus!! God FORBID that I would ever lead anyone astray because I was too heavy on the proverbial gas pedal!
I was thinking about all of this the other day while reading the 16th chapter of John and I came across a verse that suddenly felt as if Jesus was talking directly to me!
I have yet many things to say unto you, but ye cannot bear them now. (John 16:12)
It makes sense, too. There is SO MUCH in the word to understand, and chew on, and digest, that there’s just no way we could take it all in one fell swoop. It would likely demolish us from the inside out!
I think that’s why it’s so hard to talk with someone who doesn’t share the same bone-marrow-piercing desire to know the Truth that I have in myself. That I’ve spent years studying on and noting and diligently cross-referencing to make sure it the Truth, the Whole Truth, and nothing BUT the Truth.
That’s so important to me.
But you can’t give the entire doctrine to ANYONE all at once.
It’s just not possible.
For one thing, there are too many layers to uncover in one sitting. For another, some people just flat don’t WANT the Truth. And for yet another, even if they DO want the truth, we know that the god of this world blinds the eyes of the lost, so that they don’t see the same thing we see, nor do they hear the same things we hear.
I would love to write a book at some point. I don’t know that I would ever have the time, but I can imagine each chapter being a well thought out section devoted to different aspects of the Truth. Things I want to say SO BADLY to anyone who will listen. I mean, really listen. I mean… when you find the very best of something, isn’t it human nature to want to share it and bring those closest to you in on the amazing find?
Well, that’s how it is with this Truth! It’s so important to me, and it’s important to everyone else, too, whether they know it or not. The problem is, when I get started, I can never find a good stopping place. Then I say one thing, wind up trying to explain that, and never make it to the endpoint I had in mind when the conversation started in the first place!
Needless to say, it’s something I’m working on! I have no other choice! I really do want to get to a place where I can share this Gospel with everyone, regardless of their background or current status, and in a way that doesn’t leave them feeling like they’ve been on the inside of a blender!
Lord Jesus, You know my heart!